So... Ive been M.I.A past couple of weeks. Wish I could say, "I've been oh so busy... amazing things are happening to me career wise and personally... My career is sky rocketing, and I found my self in a whirlwind of activity... YAY for me!!!" ... Well I wish I could say that... but truth is, I cant. Well not exactly ... See I've been feeling a bit stuck lately... Creatively blocked... frustrated and in a bit of a funk lately. Things not happening as fast as I would like lately... and distractions from the tedious, day to day rigors of life, taking my focus and energy.
These EXCUSES not withstanding... I know I had to man up... 'tough out' this funk and break out of my rut. It was time for CHANGE. Change... That inevitable, irregularly-regular occurrence, so many fear and dislike. A happening, Ive become adjusted to, accustomed to and now seek out in my life. I've learned that change doesn't have to be this abstract, uncontrollable event that I am victimized by. That I have some control over the things happening in my world. That, because something is unknown, doesn't automatically equate to negative, or bad. Ive learned, and am learning that... sometimes, being willing to leave that safety-netted comfort zone... is necessary step towards embracing change that will impact your life for the good. So now, I embrace change, in the efforts of making things better. Unwilling to allow that comfort make me apathetic towards living my life, following and finding my joy(s).
I had to remind myself that, I never want to be soooo comfortable, that I cease to be curious. That I cease to want to learn, and grow as a person and as an artist. I had to remind myself that facing and overcoming my fears, taking on new challenges and experiences, is a most thrilling and important part of the journey.
So here I am, with a new look... a new approach... and new prospects dancing in my head. I shaved all my hair off! For those that have known me or seen me, know I had long dread-locks that I had been growing for many years; locks I had become attached to. For a while there, I almost identified myself synonymously, with my hair. As others became (just as, if not more) attached to and defined me by it. I was comfortable with that... I like how I looked... was unsure how Id look or be accepted without them. I booked a good amount of gigs with them... but refused to acknowledged, how my insistence on keeping them, was keeping me from growing and doing more as an artist and professional in the industry. I made excuses, like, 'my investment and branding being tied to my look', and 'how changing that would set me too far back'.
All just ways of trying to be safe, in my comfort zone.
But, Ive since; opened up to and am taking on new opportunities. Not, just strictly acting but in other areas; allowing me to develop my skills and grow as a person and artist. I'm taking on teaching, a beginners acting class to beginning students for a studio thats requested my services. An opportunity that allows my to share some of my knowledge and gifts... as I continue to work on my own craft and help others. Ive also started freelance blogging for a new new site... an opportunity I came by, through this very blog. My new look, has gotten great reaction and feedback from my supporters, peers, loved ones and industry colleagues. New opportunities are appearing all around me...and I can see, more in the future for my continued growth! I am excited again... and ready for action! So hello world! I'm Baaackkkk!!! Not that I ever went anywhere really... we all go through phases of funk sometimes... but It's in those time I try to remember... change is good! So while I cant EXACTLY say... "My career is sky rocketing, and I found my self in a whirlwind of activity" I can say that... I am still blessed and see the world in bloom all around me.. Yay for me after-all!!
Wishing the same for you....
Peace and blessings!
These EXCUSES not withstanding... I know I had to man up... 'tough out' this funk and break out of my rut. It was time for CHANGE. Change... That inevitable, irregularly-regular occurrence, so many fear and dislike. A happening, Ive become adjusted to, accustomed to and now seek out in my life. I've learned that change doesn't have to be this abstract, uncontrollable event that I am victimized by. That I have some control over the things happening in my world. That, because something is unknown, doesn't automatically equate to negative, or bad. Ive learned, and am learning that... sometimes, being willing to leave that safety-netted comfort zone... is necessary step towards embracing change that will impact your life for the good. So now, I embrace change, in the efforts of making things better. Unwilling to allow that comfort make me apathetic towards living my life, following and finding my joy(s).
I had to remind myself that, I never want to be soooo comfortable, that I cease to be curious. That I cease to want to learn, and grow as a person and as an artist. I had to remind myself that facing and overcoming my fears, taking on new challenges and experiences, is a most thrilling and important part of the journey.
So here I am, with a new look... a new approach... and new prospects dancing in my head. I shaved all my hair off! For those that have known me or seen me, know I had long dread-locks that I had been growing for many years; locks I had become attached to. For a while there, I almost identified myself synonymously, with my hair. As others became (just as, if not more) attached to and defined me by it. I was comfortable with that... I like how I looked... was unsure how Id look or be accepted without them. I booked a good amount of gigs with them... but refused to acknowledged, how my insistence on keeping them, was keeping me from growing and doing more as an artist and professional in the industry. I made excuses, like, 'my investment and branding being tied to my look', and 'how changing that would set me too far back'.
All just ways of trying to be safe, in my comfort zone.
But, Ive since; opened up to and am taking on new opportunities. Not, just strictly acting but in other areas; allowing me to develop my skills and grow as a person and artist. I'm taking on teaching, a beginners acting class to beginning students for a studio thats requested my services. An opportunity that allows my to share some of my knowledge and gifts... as I continue to work on my own craft and help others. Ive also started freelance blogging for a new new site... an opportunity I came by, through this very blog. My new look, has gotten great reaction and feedback from my supporters, peers, loved ones and industry colleagues. New opportunities are appearing all around me...and I can see, more in the future for my continued growth! I am excited again... and ready for action! So hello world! I'm Baaackkkk!!! Not that I ever went anywhere really... we all go through phases of funk sometimes... but It's in those time I try to remember... change is good! So while I cant EXACTLY say... "My career is sky rocketing, and I found my self in a whirlwind of activity" I can say that... I am still blessed and see the world in bloom all around me.. Yay for me after-all!!
Wishing the same for you....
Peace and blessings!
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